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Hello blog, had been wanting to post something.. but kept procrastinating.

anyway, i conclude that miracles do not exist in this world. not to me, at least. yes, i failed the STRE. my nightmare came true, and it had been haunting me since. currently still in the process of accepting the fact that all my efforts had gone to waste, and i've got learn how to face the world while trying to escape from it.

2012 hadn't been my year.. and i hope that i can pick myself up in 2013.. and that lady luck will come visit me again.

many people had been writing about their 2012 on facebook. i'm not going to publicise mine and so here i am, looking back at mine and blogging about it.

Jan
counted down to a hopeful new year with jac at the blue solana, beijing. continued intern, started at new department, counted down to going home (as usual).

Feb
went back to sg for cny, had a big reunion dinner, first reunion dinner after big sis got married. huge scallops were included in the menu. went to hokkaido for a holiday, last trip with a single 2nd sis, a little nostalgic. the family had a little dispute over money business (okay i think its just mummy being the one who started the nonsense). left for beijing again one day before mummy's birthday, so we had an early birthday dinner with her.

Mar
first round of graduation exams started.. written papers were tested first. can't remember what came out.. but they were over rather quickly. after that took a small break and went to tianjin. resumed studying to prepare for oral component of the exams.

Apr
received news that big sis was pregnant.

oral exams. nei ke one was okay, just felt quite nervous.. the whole process felt like an interview. i got allocated to take tui na oral instead of acupuncture. at that time i was only into my 2nd week at the tui na dept! cldnt opt out of it. seriously, how was i supposed to learn the clinical aspects of the stuffs in such a short time? i was having a problem with shen qian (tui na teacher), or at least i thought i was. he didn't seem to be willing to teach us the stuffs, yet he expected us to know them. he was one of the examiners so i was really afraid. not that they were fierce, but i just felt that he was really mean and really expecting too much from us. so i ended up breaking down the morning before my exams, sobbing in the tui na clinic. very embarrassing but i just cldnt hold it back. whatever, that was one time lady luck came to me and i got an easy question. maybe lady luck had since left me. sigh.

May
finished all the exams, happily enjoying our last few days in beijing. went to cheng de for a short getaway too. beautiful bi shu shan zhuang. planned for my parent's arrival in beijing, planned our hong kong itinerary as well. borrowed BUCM convocation gowns and took photos around the hospital.

June
parents came, did all the last few closure procedures like the bank and our house, and toured with them in beijing. was feeling quite upset and i still vividly remember looking back at our empty house but full of memories. i never used to be pleased with jac but i thought i never really learnt to appreciate her too. human nature to only know how to treasure when things are gone. anyway, time slipped past us too quickly. i didn't notice my parents were already getting on in ages and they were rather unhappy at the beijing itinerary that involved too much walking. alot of friction happened, with lots of complaints.

moved on to HK, went to disneyland and all. parents started fighting. hadnt seen them fight like that in so long, so i was quite shocked. they were practically screaming at each other in the hotel room. wonder if anyone next door heard them. they fought over the purchase of souvenirs. really stupid. probably they were already moody and tired from the trip so the souvenir thing triggered the fight. in the end they werent talking for a period of time. 2nd time my mum threw a tantrum in the year, she seems to be so narrow-minded and childish and rough. wonder why she still likes travelling so much when she always pick up fights with other people during the trip.

July
started renaturation intern in sg.. every week busily writing reports and stuffs.

Aug
started studying for stre.. renaturation intern ended and we started having pre-mock and mock exams.

Sept
yet somemore mock exams.. spent my birthday studying for mock exam. toughest month in the year.. coz renaturation ended and revision at home was 24/7. looking at the same things over and over again and not remembering them was such a torture. occasionally broke down at home.. forever remained in the semi-depressed state.

interviews for the jobs that i applied for started.. ntu's junior physician, bao zhong tang's assistant physician, and adxto's consultant.

Oct
failed all of my interviews except adxto's, and was offered the job. stre started, went on for 4 days, screwing up one paper really badly. felt terrible after that. started work at adxto right after the exam.

Nov
da jie gave birth to baby lucas.

failed the stre. expected but still devastated, in disbelief that my nightmare came true for a period of time.. got my first pay and bought a charles and keith working bag.

Dec
bought my first insurance, went to batam for a holiday with my best friends (our first overseas trip together). started my first ukulele lesson. went to UK farm with baby.

thats all.. time seems to fly. how will it be like in 2013? if only i can know and plan beforehand so that it will go smoothly....

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